CHAPTER 14
STORY OF LENKA
In September I had to retake the exams I failed when I had gone through my pregnancy and termination. All the studying I had done back in Kraslice when I was avoiding spending time with Maminka, must have paid off because this time I sailed through each exam with relative ease. I couldn’t believe how lucky I was. I felt as if an angel was watching over me. When I closed my eyes, I would picture Oma’s face always with that enigmatic Mona Lisa smile. Every night when I went to bed, I would talk to her before falling asleep.
My six-month internship was to begin in April. While I was still at university, I was scared I might not be able to find a suitable position but thanks to my tutor’s extensive connections I was offered an internship contract with IOTD, the International Organisation for Trade and Development, where I would be working in the economic department, helping to promote companies from Central Europe in France. The office was based in the 7th arrondissement of Paris, in a beautiful historical building, facing the Eiffel Tower.
I had all of March to myself. I strolled the streets of Paris, window shopping in the expensive Grandes Magazins were the most I could afford was a pair of socks. I went to some of the famous sites I had not had time to go to before. Of course, I had been to the Eiffel Tower, Notre Dame and the Louvre but now I was able to explore the city a little more and get to know it better. I met with some friends from the university, but I never managed to get beyond petty small talk or conversations about our studies. They were from different backgrounds and it was more difficult than I thought for me to open up.
I had hoped Klára might be able to visit but she was busy with her job back in Bayreuth. After a while, I started to feel lonely and listless. When April finally came around I couldn’t wait to start working.
On my first day at the Organisation, I got up extra early – I had to be in the office by nine but I was so nervous about being late I was already up by six. I had woken before my alarm anyway and lay in bed trying to imagine myself walking into the office and shaking hands with my new boss. I was hoping things would work out well there.
Once I got out of bed, I took a cold shower. The hot water wasn’t working properly, so I had no choice. I promised myself I would move out of this place as soon as I could afford to.
Just a week ago, I had bought an elegant black outfit, not from one of the expensive Paris stores, but from H&M which was where I went shopping for nearly all my clothes. I completed the look with new shoes, heels not too high, just right for the office. Fully dressed, I started to apply my makeup, taking extra care to hide all my imperfections. Every time I got my period I had a breakout and with my usual good luck, I was starting my job with a face full of pimples! I thought of Klára, who never had a single pimple on her face. It seemed so unfair.
Finally, I put on a nice pair of gold earrings Maminka had given me as a gift when I turned eighteen, and a bracelet I inherited from Oma. I looked in the mirror and felt pretty satisfied with the effect. I no longer looked like a student, staring back at me was a grown-up working woman. I hardly recognised her!
Although I made a good impression on my first day, as the weeks went by I somehow managed to frequently be late. I would get up at 6:30, which still left me twenty minutes to spare and yet for some reason I was always running behind! I couldn’t imagine I was the one to blame. It was the Parisian time – one moment you had 30 minutes to spare, the next moment you looked at the clock and you were late! This city just seemed to gobble up time. No wonder the French were always late.
My boss, the director of the economic department, was a hefty man in his mid-fifties, who was now in his third year in the Paris office. His name was Stanislaus but everyone called him Stan. He was German but spoke some Czech. I thought this was because he had previously served as a diplomat at the German Embassy in Prague. And this was also probably why I got the internship.
Stan hated chaos and liked everything to be organised perfectly. He was rigorously disciplined and stuck to his routine like clockwork which might have been appreciated in Germany but not here. The perfect organisation was a rare thing in France, and in spite of trying my very best, chaos became my everyday routine.
He lived only a ten-minute walk from the office. This allowed him to avoid the stress of traffic or public transport but put even more pressure on me. By the time I got into the packed local express train, RER B, and prayed that the train door would simply close behind me without delay, Stan was calmly waking up and listening to Deutsche Welle, a German radio news station.
He and his wife did not have any children together, but Stan once told me he had a daughter from a previous marriage who was my age and lived in Brussels. He proudly showed me photographs of her, displayed on his desk. To me, she wasn’t pretty. She was huge, just like Stan. But she was smiling and had long blond, hair making her look attractive. I said she looked very friendly and that I hoped to meet her one day.